This was suppose to a happy post. But i guess things don't really go as planned do they? It's just 10 more days to Christmas. I'm supposed to be really REALLY excited. And yeah i guess i am just not that much. I just want to be strong. So strong that even when i'm crushed into millions of tiny pieces, i can somehow find a way to fix myself. I don't want help from anybody because this is something i have to learn to do myself. Life is really a bitch.