April 18, 2009 9:59 PM
# 85
Hello,
Now i really know how's life without having both love from parents.
I hate it.
My tears keep on flowing down because of this.
I love my dad & mum alot.
But, i dont know who to choose now.
Like i said before i hate being a ping pong ball.
So, now i really dont know what to do.
I just talked to my mum.
Well, recently my dad & mum fought again.
Because, my dad was still hanging out with that bitch.
He made a promise to mum that he'll never.
That's why my mum was like damn furious with him.
So again it happened.
I was in the middle.
I really hate it people.
I just want to put a stop to this, but i cant.
I can never hurt them both.
If my mum scolds my dad.
I'd be so hurt & sad.
Cause i love my dad too, & seeing him being beaten up really makes me devastated.
Well, if i see my mum being scolded by my dad.
I'd get really sad, cause she'd be crying.
& soon i'd be crying too,
Hiding in the corner with tears dripping down my face.
I guess it was alright for my dad to find another woman to take good care of him,
& the reason my mum is so reluctant about it is because.
She doesn't like that woman for him.
Even i dont like that woman.
She's a prostitute, can youh stand seeing them both together?
I cant, as well as my mum.
If my dad could just find a great wife,
My life would be not as dull as it is now.
Well, these family problems has really affected me.
So please, in school dont make my life worst.
Keep quiet can ?
I'm really trying my best struggling so,
Dont make my life more miserable.
Just being quiet, it helps alot.
Now, let just pray hard that i wont cry again.
Cause, it sucks.
I hate crying.
Well, i really love my parents.
& i'm so stupid to finally realise, how much i do.
Why on Earth did i had to realise it now ?
Why couldn't it be last time ?
When they were so happy together ?
Well, i cant do anything anymore.
Everytime i see or hear them fight.
A part of me, will just be torn apart.
Like a flower that whither's & dies.
Bye.
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Sup, my name is Shandy, I'm 18 and I'm Chinese-Pinoy. I procrastinate & live life.
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