April 11, 2009 11:34 PM
# 79
hey people,
Life, is gettin' more & more boring.
Nowadays, i seldom go out.
I really dont know why my life turned out to be like this.
Now i know what it feels like, alone.
I cant help, but look back into my memories.
All the Laughter & Sadness.
Now i i reflect.
I wasted my life doing all those.
Should have studied more.
To have a life in future.
To have a job.
To go wherever i want.
My dreams are simple, but hard to fulfil.
I dont keep up to standards as my disciplinary fails me.
All i can think of is a good long rest.
A rest where there's no tomorrow.
If thats the case,
No more stress,
No more worries,
No more problems to solve,
No more parents to nag,
No more anything.
But i cant just possably sleep.
There's more in life than dying.
well,
I miss him.
& nothing in this world can tell me how much i do.
i cant do anything about it too.
Loving someone is tough, really tough.
But i wont give up easily.
I just told myself.
It'll just be a month without him, not so bad right?
Its better than without him forever.
But, i was wrong.
Every minute every second without him makes my heart sore.
Being in love with him really is great & wonderful.
But i never ever thought of letting him go.
Its just so hard, painful, sorrowful.
These feelings in me.
really hurts me alot.
Oh well, i just gotta' bear with it for a little while more.
So that later on, all these pain & sufferings will be no more.
To that passer-by,
I'm not trying to scold you or anything,
But, why must you make my life miserable?
Now my life is dreadful.
Its so peaceful & quiet like no one's around anymore.
I feel so empty.
Nothing inside me.
Now i know, now i seriously know.
What's life without him.
Happy now? Are you satisfied with what you've done?
I hope you are because my life is torn apart.
I dont feel like going to school on Monday.
Whatever happens, just live with it people.
I hate homework, can someone just please tell me what is it specificly?
It would be a great help.
If not i wont do it at all.
Well, i'm ending my post here.
bye.
Labels: Trying to Escape from this miserable life.
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Sup, my name is Shandy, I'm 18 and I'm Chinese-Pinoy. I procrastinate & live life.
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